Thursday, January 10, 2013

Not quite sure what I find more amusing.

That I may have worked out, or that I can't remember if I worked out.

One of the quickest things you learn when you have Fibromyalgia, is that you can't lie.  Not even a teeny, tiny white lie.  Why?  'Cause the friend you canceled that lunch date with is going to ask you about it.  "My baby wasn't sick", you'll say.  You see, until you've tried spending time with someone who has Fibromyalgia, you don't even know how fartsy we are.  We're worse than your grandmother.  I'm in my late 20's and people get so frustrated with how bad my memory is, I'm not supposed to act like I'm 80.  I can't tell you how many times I'm mid sentence and have to politely ask what we were talking about.  It really goes that fast.  I love it when I put something really important in a really important place, this way I'm guaranteed not to lose it.  I've been looking for weeks for something I put in a "very special place, so I wouldn't lose it."  My favorite, though, has to be my "work out" memory.  I used to love working out.  Before Fibromyalgia, I used to do Navy Seal workouts.  Two hours, twice a day.  I'm vain, I love to look and feel sexy, I loved working out, it was pure adrenaline.  It felt sooooo good.  I never missed a day.  That was until I was diagnosed.  Now, Fibromyalgia doesn't let me work out like I used to, but I still wake up feeling like I did hard-core the day before.  My favorite is waking up and wondering if I'm sore from working out.  :)  I haven't "worked out" in years.  The last time I was hard core working out was four years ago, right before I started feeling Fibromyalgia real deep.  How in the world could you forget if you worked out every day?  Every day I wake up, I ask my husband, "did I work out yesterday?  My body's killing me!"  He laughs, and I stare blankly confused at him.  The only thing I CAN remember, is that when people act offended and say, "don't you remember anything?", I know to say, "I can't remember five minutes ago, you expect me to remember THAT?"

Fibromyalgia has made me an extremely honest woman.  There is no lie you can tell that you'll actually remember.

:)

2 comments:

  1. All I can do with this is laugh and nod!!! My husband is quite a few years older than me and we often joke about me having his memory problems along with my 80 year old body! And I still have another month in my twenties!!!

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    1. Hahaha, yeah, we're old. :)

      It's no good when you're both fartsy. My husband is as bad as I am most of the time. It's amazing we don't forget what in the world is going on. :)

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