I hurt. I hurt real good. Have I ever, ever mentioned I hate M.S. and Fibromyalgia? Ever? Mmm, wasn't sure if I had or not.
Today my body is so wracked with pain. Fun flare up! I freaking ❤ these! No, really, they're the best. Can't get enough pain...really... All I know is that someone needs to die today. I don't care if it's me, or someone I loathe, I'm positive that would make me feel better. Yep, that would help. In the meantime, I'm living on heat packs, the comfort of my bed, and Mass Effect 3.
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Oh no!!! And you've actually been feeling kind of normal lately! That really sucks.
ReplyDeleteI am, for the first time in a long time, feeling some relief. Not total relief, but some. I know it for sure has to do with having been on vacation last week and being in the sun and warm weather. But I feel it creeping back in slowly! UGH, can't winter end already?
Hope you find relief soon!
We're poor college kids, and I had to eat something that I knew would make me sick. :/ Whatcha gonna do when money doesn't grow on trees? :) I am feeling better now, healing from that. I love food, I so wish I could eat crap and get away with it.
DeleteYay for vacation and sunshine! It's slowly getting warmer here, yay! Cannot wait for full blown summer.
My sister and I have fibromyalgia. She shot herself in Jan. Wrote notes to every one saying, "I'm sorry, I cannot take this anymore, living in the sick body" She often talked like 'I'm surprised I've reached 50. I hadn't planned to be here.". . Still it shocked me, we were finally so close. Living states apart. I think about her everyday. Sometimes I cry. I'm older by two years. Like is so hard, but I have a sweetheart that makes it better. I'm thankful for my good days.Now that the weather is warmer, we might all feel better! ♥
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness. This was so hard to read. Having Fibromyalgia, we can all understand, to a degree, what she felt. I try to help people understand that there are days where it's worse mentally than it is physically.
DeleteAs a sister, I cannot imagine the pain this caused/causes you, and for everyone who loved her.
Just reading what you wrote, I can tell you're incredibly strong. No matter what you think or feel, you're still here. You're still fighting. No, that doesn't mean there are days we wish we weren't. It just means we're holding it together the best we can, which of course, takes an insane amount of strength. This illness is not for the weak. Losing the battle, or winning it, there are no weak fighters. We're all doing the best we can with what we have.
Bless you and sister. Bless your darling sweetheart who makes all the pain, physically and mentally, bearable.
I have a feeling the warm weather will help a lot, too. In all the ways warmth was meant to heal us.